Have you ever heard that statement before? I have many times..in fact, I’ve even said it myself.
This journey of adoption, however, is more than I can handle. We have had many ups and downs in the last 15 months of this process and in recent days we have reached a hurdle that is so discouraging my heart struggles to hold onto hope at all. To make a long story short, there was some very difficult paperwork to obtain that we have now been told is lost. Completing this paperwork in the first place was none other than a miracle but now to hear that it has been lost is definitely “more than I can handle.” The fact that we have been waiting 3.5 months since the completion of this paperwork for a very important meeting to occur..only to find out now that not only is this meeting not happening but the paperwork is gone is “more than I can handle.” The fact that I don’t know if we can even obtain this paperwork again is “more than I can handle.” And ultimately, the fact that this prolongs or possibly erases the day when I can hold my precious daughter “Hope” safely in my arms again is much MUCH “more than I can handle.”
After I met with our dear pastor/mentor/friend today, he reminded me that the Bible does not state that, “God will never give you more than you can handle.” The Bible says that God will be with you and will give you strength.
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
“I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13
So, this feeling of brokenness, discouragement, and sorrow is okay to feel. Because sometimes, the things we face ARE more than we can handle on our own. But that is WHY we must cling to the promises and the hope we receive through Christ our Savior in times like these. We must remember that he WILL help us, he WILL be with us, and he WILL give us the strength we need to get through whatever it is we are facing.
Today, I do not know where this journey is leading. I do not understand why this setback is happening. But…I do know that I will continue to have hope, I will be patient, and I will continue to pray that God’s will be done and the path be made clear.
Pray with me…
“Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.” Romans 12:12